crystal_sun396: (umbrella)
* Out of the country for the next five days. Back extremely late Monday night. This is the important bullet.
- The entire family is going for one of the first times ever. For once, there's no one left at home base to run transport. Little dog will be lonely.
- Tam, Lina, pictures!
- No internet? Also, likely, no phone.

* Ying is going to kill me. Coordination is difficult.
- Still yet to see TF II.

* I have been reading Fables. (library)
* I have also been reading Young Justice. (internet - Blue linked me once)
* I will eventually buy Huntress: YO. Probably once school starts again. Ela?

* Hospital thing finally went through. Visited the dietary office again and saw pretty much everyone, including first boss-man. I need to email K at some point. Or facebook.
- He says he's going into criminal justice.
- His brother is a Batman fan.
- I am awful with names; no wonder I used to nickname everyone. ... I still nickname a lot.
- Passed Tina on the way.

* Lerner, Journalism, Low, Admissions, PRESIDENT (actually his secretary - Paul), Secretary. This is the path I took today in order to attain one sodding stamp. Miffed. Just a tad. At the train people, not the school people
- I haven't dreamed about trains since I started riding them regular-like.

* Josh and Aaron violin dueted in the giant lecture hall today. Bach. After the duet, they showed each other tricks; a group of passerbys dubbed it a "violin off".

* Did I EVER make a Dre entry? I met Dre! We had fun! We walked a lot and texted Sai! This was last last Monday.

* Giant thunder and lightning storm outside.
* I've been having a lot of bug conversations lately.

AND NOW I am back. More on this when I'm... you might never have more on this, actually. Huh.

crystal_sun396: (our witch)
Meme from Sai and Dre and... I think Sophie? And.... I am not keeping track, hey? Some of these apply to more than one person. Hopefully I'm pretty predictable in regards to things I would want to inform others of, or I haven't been doing my duty.

... Also, I can't shut up.

Things I Wish I Could Say to Different People Right Now:

1. You're still the person I trust the most in the world, and our friendship is still something I consider ideal. Perfect acceptance. One day we'll be in the same fandoms again, and we'll pick everything right up again. In the meantime, our occasional random throwing of hearts at each other is all I need.

2. I want to know you better, but I know you enough now to make a judgment. I have a right to make that judgment and you have earned it, honest. You're sweet and interesting. I like you. You should just accept that I like you for now instead of worrying about our degree of association. I can just change my mind later, if you disappoint me, okay? But I don't think you will.

3. Please, I do mean what I say when I fangirl all over you. The cognitive dissonance when I lie about stuff like that is usually too much trouble to bother with. It probably all sounds ridiculous by now. I bet it's repetitive. But I want to say it every time I think it; I want to let you know while I can, because I can.

4. You give great advice and lots of insights to things I would otherwise miss. You put up with me so graciously, it's like you're made of patience except you have to also be made of crack. I'm always a little surprised to remember that there exist people as supportive as you. You inspire me to be better for other people.

5. I've owed you candy for nearly two years now. I haven't forgotten, even if we haven't spoken for a while. I remember you every time I see that kind, and feel a little guilty inside.

6. Our friendship ended with such dignity. Or maybe I mean "paused". One can just as easily be the other, and maybe that's what I'm talking about. I still read your entries sometimes, and it makes me happy to see you doing well.

7. You are off-limits for a lot of things. This is a shame, because you are one of maybe two people I could see myself able to stand living with for any significant length of time and vice versa. After all, we've done it before. (And yeah, tried to kill each other daily, but we could be so good now.) At least our love for each other has got to be something like compulsory, by now. .... Actually, that's probably not good either.

8. I'm so sorry. You deserve so much more of me than I've been able to give, or maybe you deserve someone else who can actually give you those things. I will try to make more of an effort. I don't know why it is such an effort, besides the overhanging guilt (which is majorly counterproductive), but I can find out and deal with it. You're such a good person. Too good a person.

9. Every time you reassure me, I feel that much more comfortable. Every time we just talk probably helps too. The intimidated feeling is almost unavoidable since I've got this particular breed of awe for you. Um, so just be patient with me. I'll get over it.

10. You're the most natural teacher I know. It is really impressive. I love hearing you explaining things, no matter what they are, because you can make them so interesting and easy to grasp. All subjects of all complexities. You've patience and thoughtfulness and insane amounts of clarity of thought and expression. I wish I had some of that understanding, so that maybe I could be of more use to you. I wish I could give you the contentment you deserve.
crystal_sun396: (brain eatingz)
1) Housing. I. Probably will have it?

2) Dreamed about befriending a sociopathic dude who was magicked into being this zombie-thing, and we climbed a bookloft and he tried to eat my arm or something so. So clearly I had enough sleep. ...Woke up brainless.

3) Stretched too thin. This is ridiculous. I like it.

4) I have cake. I had social interaction in RL. I have to learn how to be in three places at once so that I can live with everybody next year. Charges on mass murder, what.

5) Homework. I . maybe I should. go do that.

crystal_sun396: (umbrella)
Look! A real update that doesn't consist of links and junk! (This SO needs to be edited - TMI warnings?) That's because the RL finally got interesting enough for me to notice it over the brilliant shiny colors of my beautiful new fandom (if you haven't heard by now, it is Transformers! ♥ ). ... Although RL didn't have to get my attention this way.

TL;DR: I am sick. Art class is going decently. Trying for a TF/AM X-over. Am behind on RPing. )

Or maybe I'll just go TF-fic hunting. /: Guh.
crystal_sun396: (workworkljwork)
Dear Brain,

You know, it would be nice to sleep straight through tonight. Straight through. I mean, I would like ever so much to not find myself awake, say, an hour early, doubting whether I slept at all. It's ridiculous, and I'm tired. The towel over my window blocking out the lack-of-sun protests on my behalf. Give it a rest already. I feed you space mechs all day; enough is enough at night. When I'm suppose to be offline, I'd like to get some actual recharge done. Thanks.

- Me

I always tend to feel guilty around my birthday. Weeks before, I start to back away from people contact (internet contact). I have so many wonderful friends who remembered/ were alerted this year. It’s unusual, and probably touching. Yes. Definitely touching. I received phone calls. And singing. (Haha, I’m sorry, guys, about the lackluster response. I couldn’t quite wrap the grey matter around it at the time.) Sares asked me out to lunch Sunday, but I was a booby and turned it down for studying Calc and Bio (which I still bombed on, 'bombed' here being a negative term). I'm really looking forward to this weekend, though. I wish I could repay; she totally made my morning/noon.

A FList call out from Terra ♥. It was so sweet; I really wish I knew how to express gratitude a little better. Dad’s in pretty close contact at the mo’, what with financial aiding going on, so I got his this year too. (It’s not his fault in previous years; we’re never home when he calls. Probably.)

I suspect today was not a good day to not-watch the internet, judging by how my inbox appears to have exploded. I’m not even going to attempt my Flist (especially with Bunny acting up). Oh man, and then there's Facebook. Everything goes uphill now, you know? It’s great now, but things get better mentally after today’s trials. Although I don’t think I’m going to attempt extract myself from this fandom after all (although I will attempt not to subject your Flists to my growing obsession as per usual). It’s very nice here. I’m going to learn to contribute and not just lurk all the time.

Anyway, tomorrow is my last midterm. Econ and … Culinary Practical. I fail at practical intelligence (decent in academic, so-so in creative [it’s getting worse]). Three days of solid Mads-in-the-morning. I’m pretty excited. I just… need to find my Mass score for All-Shore. Mm. I need to update LJ. Like, with life-things and not just TF links. And do the ‘net rounds.
crystal_sun396: (our witch)
I had a dream last night. ... This morning. This morning, I had a dream that me and a group of friends (classmates, acquaintances, other people roughly my age) were attacked by zombies. We were in a smallish room at the edge of a larger complex. It was a pretty lived in room, actually, with messy large polished-wood desks and some sort of carpeting and a supply closet. There was an air vent by the closet and a small window-slit in the door.

The first time things went over pretty well. We didn't breathe too loudly and we didn't move very much. We tried not to talk, but Nat (... I don't know a Nat. I don't know.) did mention the air vent and how we needed to escape that way as soon as the coast was clear. There was screaming outside in the hallways, but it wasn't very loud. It was day, and the window light was pretty clear - it was as nice day out, is what I mean. Like this morning. So mostly, our room was just passed by.

The second time, things were very bad. I'm not exactly sure why there was a second time. Maybe my brain couldn't be bothered with coming up with a new dream, but anyway, I had the same dream again. Only this time, we got some other people in the room. And the zombies noticed, and broke through the door. It's like in that movie I saw over the summer, where the lurching people noticed the dog door and crawled through. Anyway, I remember it being really awkward scrambling out from under the things we were hiding under or behind, but we had to because we had been spotted and there was no good hiding. (There might have been some good for whoever was in the top part of the closet under the blue... mat-thing. I hope they got out through the air vent). Some of us were trying to push the others out (the heroes, whoever they were, so they could save the world or whatever) while the rest of us tried to hold off the zombies.

We fought for a little while. It didn't really count as fighting, maybe, because what could we do? We had no weapons and they were much stronger than us. They killed us all. They killed me. Right before I died, I do know that I was surprised. It was kind of like in a game. "Oh, we lost? We really die now?" I don't know, I think I was waiting for someone to save us. I was torn in half, pretty much, from where my neck joins my left shoulder and downwards. I think my left part fell to the ground but I was being held up by my head and that's really all I know because then I was dead. It didn't really hurt, but I was sad about us losing and about everyone being dead.

Maybe someone escaped, maybe someone got out of there, but I don't know. I doubt it. Next time, we should probably start shoving people up first thing, but what would be the point? The zombies would notice the room, get in, and kill everyone. If more people got into the vents, the zombies would just follow them and kill them there. There was a window; I don't know why we didn't run outside that way. There was green grass outside, and a nice sky. Maybe it was fake. Maybe the zombies had to stay inside the building? It wasn't that bad a dream. Like, it wasn't a nightmare. Everything was too detached. I should think of something to do, in case I have this dream again. This time, we're gonna win.

I had a dream the night before, too. Lily was in it, I think. And there was touch over the internet. Virtual bodies that could be sent across cyberspace. Lily's body-thing was visiting and I was asking her what it was like from her end, because I wanted to try going to the other side. And that's pretty much it. We were probably at a college dorm, much like where the, uh, zombies attacked the next night. Um. ... This was a good dream too.

Aaaaaand the night before that, I had a dream that I was gluing (pasting, more like) red maple leaves to planes of glass. Many many leaves one by one. And then someone else much larger than me (not exactly corporeal?) was pasting those glass sheets to the sky. We were decorating, preparing because someone special was going to visit very soon. Anyway, it was very pretty, even if it didn't make a great deal of sense.
crystal_sun396: (zombies)
[ profile] shyue is a crazy, but she is an influental crazy.

Second-ish week in Taiwan (Training Center time), so about mid July:
I woke up thinking "Soylent green is people!" which only goes to show the impressive powers of Jonathan Coulton and Wikipedia together. However, the people in my dream came out as small brown cake things, I think, with less of the green. And also there were seething cannibal-like armies who weren't waiting for the things to be processed. Think Reevers. It was a very interesting dream. Very exciting.

There were three other people in the room, none of whom were screaming and two of whom were in lower bunks, so I felt reassured enough to relish the realistic aftereffects of my dream. The likelihood that actual ninja zombies might attack random sleepers in the night is very small - something I had not properly appreciated before. Wide awake in my top bunk in the dark, I could almost believe there were cannibals clawing their way towards the bed (over numerous suitcases that were putting up a poor defense and also, I think, a plastic stool). I amused myself thusly for several minutes before coming to the irrelevant conclusion that my mental cannibals resemble zombies a very great deal . Sort of flesh vs. brains thing. Also a reality vs fantasy thing, but not going into that.

This conclusion was confirmed more than two weeks later when I decided to watch some zombie-werewolf movie that happened to be showing on Taiwan TV. I say zombie-werewolf, but the creatures were neither and resembled both. When normal people were bitten by the monsters, usually after some great bloody struggle, they became monsters too (just animated corpses, no exciting new developments like tentacles or laser-eye beams or anything). Monsters could be be killed using guns and great big fiery explosives. They spent most of their time lurching about aimlessly with their arms held limply in front of them not chewing each other's brains. The whole program was in English with subtitles and after it was over, I ended up watching bits of Mulan II in Chinese before I could start trying to sleep. By then it was very late, so I was very tired and did not have any nightmares or dreams.

There was a path on my island with broken down houses; my team member (the one who reads and writes horror) insists they look like a scene from Resident Evil when we pass by them in the niiiiight. They do look something of the sort, not that I play RE, mind. All in all, our island was very lacking in undead. Um, and cannibals. We don't have them either, I think. Who believes in hufu? :D

EDIT: Biological magnification – a trophic process in which retained substances become more concentrated with each link in the food chain. Higher level carnivores tend to be the worst affected by toxic compounds in the environment.

So no worries, eh? Eating a few humans is bound to be enough to knock someone dead.

EDIT: So. The movie I watched. Was Resident Evil. Ha, what do you know. o_O
crystal_sun396: (color & light)
Silly stuff )
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Stuff about my trip )


Mar. 28th, 2005 08:19 pm
crystal_sun396: (color & light)
Pointless info about my day )
crystal_sun396: (Default)
Hi, I'm new at this, so don't mind me. I have no idea how this works, so things are bound to be weird. I should probably go find my friends for help, but I won't. I'm going to try this out by myself. ... Of course all my friends should have no trouble finding me because I use the same user-name all the time.

Friends, if you have found me, would you mind telling me so, so I'm not rambling off into thin air? Also, I could probably use some help (again).

Actually, one of the main reasons this was created was so that I could communicate with my friends. Pretty weird, huh?

Well, I really have nothing to say, and some essay about Rachel Carson seems to have salting my fried brain and is currently serving it on a paper plate. With ketchup on the side. Yum!


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