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crystal_sun396More Academia Blah Blah Blah (that's a technical term):
"Be yourself" has always sounded a little strange to me. You know, how it's about not following others' leads, trying to be like other people, etc. But what if "yourself" is the kind of person to try and pretend to be, I don't know, your big brother or best friend or something? I mean, obviously you are, if you are already trying. In fact, there's no way for you not to be yourself, because whatever yourself would be doing, you already are!
(btw answer: wendy doniger. [this entry is a stub] because i'm kinda gone, but you are so missing out, don't let me forget this one)
Hoboy, and we could go into the gender thing (I'm a girl because I've got girl bits and fuck all vs. I fit the social code for "girl" better than "boy" even though I have boy bits perhaps I am a girl inside) but I'm not qualified to talk about this, am I. I'd like to be, I think, but I'm not. So moving on.
Nearly the same way, there's "do your best." What is that? Is that "try really hard"? Is it still my best if I wind up watching cartoons and knitting three sweaters and calling twenty people and tagging back thirty between papers because I can't focus? I was trying to focus, ma'am. That was my best, because obv, if I could have done better, I would have. ... Unless the limit is defined physically, in which case everyone falls short all the time, and degrees of "almost best" are all you can hope for.
By which I mean, fffff I am a sucky student. How on earth did I turn out to be a sucky student? Near-sighted goals are my thing. These exams should be my purpose. I do more on LJ when I need ("need") to procrastinate. Does that disqualify "best"? (Yes.)
I keep getting average. No, shut up. That's a B and I'm premed. Ow, head hurts. One hour nap is a go. And then I will wake up and, ahaha, approximate my best until... I can't stand it anymore. Geez. Making excuses is getting too easy. I believe my own lies way too often. Slippery slope, sucky student m'gal. And already slippin'. Shutting up now. Gee dee ai.
"Be yourself" has always sounded a little strange to me. You know, how it's about not following others' leads, trying to be like other people, etc. But what if "yourself" is the kind of person to try and pretend to be, I don't know, your big brother or best friend or something? I mean, obviously you are, if you are already trying. In fact, there's no way for you not to be yourself, because whatever yourself would be doing, you already are!
(btw answer: wendy doniger. [this entry is a stub] because i'm kinda gone, but you are so missing out, don't let me forget this one)
Hoboy, and we could go into the gender thing (I'm a girl because I've got girl bits and fuck all vs. I fit the social code for "girl" better than "boy" even though I have boy bits perhaps I am a girl inside) but I'm not qualified to talk about this, am I. I'd like to be, I think, but I'm not. So moving on.
Nearly the same way, there's "do your best." What is that? Is that "try really hard"? Is it still my best if I wind up watching cartoons and knitting three sweaters and calling twenty people and tagging back thirty between papers because I can't focus? I was trying to focus, ma'am. That was my best, because obv, if I could have done better, I would have. ... Unless the limit is defined physically, in which case everyone falls short all the time, and degrees of "almost best" are all you can hope for.
By which I mean, fffff I am a sucky student. How on earth did I turn out to be a sucky student? Near-sighted goals are my thing. These exams should be my purpose. I do more on LJ when I need ("need") to procrastinate. Does that disqualify "best"? (Yes.)
I keep getting average. No, shut up. That's a B and I'm premed. Ow, head hurts. One hour nap is a go. And then I will wake up and, ahaha, approximate my best until... I can't stand it anymore. Geez. Making excuses is getting too easy. I believe my own lies way too often. Slippery slope, sucky student m'gal. And already slippin'. Shutting up now. Gee dee ai.
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Date: 2010-05-13 08:59 am (UTC)♥ the way you put things
my life is shinier for your being in it